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A New Book Club for Fall

Submitted by kim on Fri, 09/12/2014 - 11:54 in Adoption, Lessons for Mom

Day Six: A New Hospital

Submitted by kim on Sun, 02/23/2014 - 18:33 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

I had known since 8:30 that they were coming at 11 o'clock, but when they walked in the door dressed in blue and pushing an ambulance gurney, I stated to sob uncontrollably.

The resident standing next to me placed a comforting hand on my shoulder, "Mom is having a flashback," she explained to the transport crew. "Let's give her a few more minutes with the baby and take everything very slowly."

We were moving Nathaniel to a new hospital - a pediatric rehabilitation hospital.

Waves of guilt poured over the flashback of our first night - drowning me. "He doesn't belong in a hospital," pounded in my head repeatedly.

On Caring for Grandpa and Baby

Submitted by kim on Thu, 02/20/2014 - 22:02 in Adoption, Character Building, Homemaking

Grandpa visiting Nathaniel at the hospital in August, 2013

Day Three: A Plan for the Weekend

Submitted by kim on Thu, 02/20/2014 - 21:14 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

We had been at the hospital for forty-eight hours when a nurse stopped me in the hall. "Kim," he said, "Can I talk to you?" I was returning from the vending machine having taken a moment away from the crib side. One of my first moments away.

I immediately assumed the worse. "No, the baby is fine," he said. "I'm the charge nurse on the floor tonight and I wanted to share an idea with you."

Day One: Welcome Home

Submitted by kim on Tue, 02/18/2014 - 12:34 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

We welcomed Nathaniel home on July 31, 2013. In the chaos of putting away medical supplies and settling in with his private duty nurse, I forgot to take photos. I have a few of the brothers loving him on the couch. One of the new proud father.

Looking at the photos now, I remember being scared. He was here. I was mom. Everything I had learned during our three week transition from his foster family to our family had built up to this moment. Were we ready for our first night?

Loved Well

Submitted by kim on Thu, 02/13/2014 - 07:15 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

A mom steps timidly forward.
A protective older brother watches cautiously.
A baby looks for reassurance.
A mom stands courageously to the side.
And the photographer positions the moment I met my son in a larger story:
his foster family loved him well.

Meeting Nathaniel

Submitted by kim on Sat, 02/08/2014 - 07:02 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

We met Nathaniel on July 3, 2013.

On Being Chosen

Submitted by kim on Wed, 02/05/2014 - 20:39 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

The following was written the morning of July 3, 2013 - the day we met Nathaniel for the first time.

We are meeting Nathaniel today.

I am scared I won’t feel love towards him.  And yet at the same time my heart beats so hard in anticipation of loving him that I think it might explode. I wake every morning wondering how he did through the night. I am scared that his medical stuff will scare me away. And yet at the same time every doctor’s note and diagnosis I read in his file gave peace rather than alarm.


Submitted by kim on Tue, 02/04/2014 - 09:48 in Adoption, Nathaniel's Story

Nathaniel Steven Rankin

The Empty Christmas Nest

Submitted by kim on Sat, 12/07/2013 - 20:14 in Adoption, Homemaking

Rich spotted it first.  An empty bird's nest nestled in the branches. We paused. Admired. Took a photo. Considered the tree. But moved on, leaving the nest for whoever claimed the tree.

But the image stuck with me all month. It was Advent to me.

"A little empty bed waiting for a baby," was the comment I posted on the photo when I uploaded it to Facebook.  I regretted leaving the nest. I wished I had brought it home to symbolize the coming of Jesus, the one who fills empty places in managers and hearts.